So today has been a semi-difficult day for me. Not that anything has gone wrong or whatever the case may be, but I've just felt not so great health-wise. My arm is swollen again meaning I have to have it drained when I go home this upcoming weekend for a FOURTH time. In addition, my throat has been sore, my stomach aches, and my eyes won't quit watering. Oh well...I'm going to take some medicine and pray that I feel better here soon!
On the bright side, I have gotten a lot of Physics studying done and can't wait for this first test to be behind me. I have the same instructor, Dr. Lih-Sin The that I did last semester so I know what his tests are like for the most part...but it's PHYSICS so it's never easy. I'm hoping that I can make an A like I did in the first part but we'll see how that goes! I know that the Lord will give me the strength once again to study what I need to study, how I need to study, etc. He's always there for me and I've truly begun to see that over the past two semesters. I've always been a Christian since I was little but it was with the aid of my parents taking me to church, etc. Never in my life did I have to make conscious decisions to trust the Lord on my own, and make sure that my life displays his works without living in the shadow of my parents. It has taken me a little over two years of college to realize that when I don't trust in him, I can't do anything!
Not only have I learned to trust in the Lord through the hard times, but also through the good times too. Too often in my life (and what I see in others') they ask the Lord for help only when they are in holes that they can't get themselves out of. Ultimately, they don't thank the Lord for that and just forget about him while the good times are happening because they don't 'need him then.' I started praising the Lord both during the good times and the bad times and say thanks when either an outcome I loved came out, or an outcome that I didn't like came out as well. Through things we don't like or want to happen, but the Lord ALLOWS to happen, we get an intangible slap across the face and learn from our mistakes. This semester I have just become so overwhelmingly excited about the things God is doing in my life. Although I cannot explain them to you, I just feel it and know that I don't have to worry about the small stuff, OR even the big stuff for that matter because I'm in his hands and so is my life. The more I go through these classes, the more I KNOW God wants me to become a Veterinarian. Through his help, I'll make it into Vet school and through his help I'll save a lot of animals from a life of despair and tragedy.
I'm learning who my real friends are and how much my family is there for me. I'm learning that my Mom and Dad were right about a lot of things and how much I respect my siblings for things they have accomplished in their lives. If I could take a few traits from each of my siblings, it would make for a truly perfect person. But as God saw it, he divided our best traits among us, which has brought us closer and made all of us best friends as we've grown up. I couldn't ask for a better family and thank them for all that they do.
I mostly wanted to take the time today to just reflect on my thoughts here recently and just let it all out in the open. I'm so excited to see what God has planned for my life today, tomorrow, and so on...and I'll let you guys know when it happens. I'm stoked about going home this upcoming Thursday after class, I'll be getting my organic exam grade back, this weekend is Trey's/my Dad's birthdays' and Valentines Day. Amidst the two exams in Biochemistry and Physics, it should be an amazing week!
Until then!